"On Armistice Day"

sunday april 4th 2009

" On Armistaas Day"

I was laying there, just now and I saw it, significance itself pretending to be all elusive n' shit. Hell na ( or no as contemporary society would say). It is the doorway of the 11:11. The say it is pre encoded into our cellular memory bank. And that is just as good an explanation as any; because just in case you didn't notice, nothing we stumble upon, or watch on the tube nowadays [1)has any relevance AND 2) should such a one ascribe ANY [pause to reflect] relevance to WHAT THEY SEE ON THE TELEVISION as having some profound intrinsic merit, I wash my hands of them. Because this individual actually believes that just because he thinks a thing is a curtain way, and his version of history insomuch as it relates to him only, is the way it was, and THEREFORE is the way it is. Because as a human, I only care about one thing. This consideration is THE fundamental attribute which guides all action. Namely this: "I care what they think." and since I have no faculty within me to rightly measure the significance of this inherent human trait, i choose not to merely accept, but instead to observe all patterns and reactions , and to rightly be alarmed at any sign of paranoia, as this is nothing and has no relevance and can only serve to postpone real discovery, It's only function is to stifle, as EVERYTHING is. Christians spiritualized this whole thing too much, to the point that I never even want to go to the place they painted for me as real. And here is what i mean. Right now there are probably the better part of one hundred thousand, frequencies floating and being deciphered unconsciously by your unconscious mind. So why can't you see it, why do you trust your own concepts, well they do, so i can to. And i am not saying your wrong, I am saying, there is no mystery. all is known and the technology which exists we know not of , !!!!!!!!this is everything summed up in it's supreme simplicity; All is known. There is no mystery, and the technology which exists we know not of ( and wouldNT understand it anyway) or "meaning" one must place on the discover of . Since this concern is universal, and since we all must "act as if" this concern is not existenct : on que, while turning on a dime, and dismissing any tacit allegation that ANYONE could have observed your countenance shift, nay, drag along, giving way to ANY ponderance's end to which is futile. regret for an action not taken, or ill executed. as an unwitting In fact, as a

Saturday 13th , 2010

All action or behavior can be derived from one of two places. Either I am who I am when you see me, or...I am not. Mine is a more extreme form of inauthenticity. This is only because for years I have considered myself for myself as one who is so good at being who I am that all of the covering didn't really happen. I am not hiding anything. I don't care. I care insomuch that it will bruise an otherwise subtly noticed concern about me being or doing something a little different than the way others do. So, I would simply redefine the thing from the inside out,. So "sense I and nobody else" was able to see how this new way of doing it would look, the "being so uniquely different" aspect of the way I would do a thing and the attention it got me, which I, myself couldn't even have told myself at the time of the creating of the validating of the functional aspect of the unfolding of the doing of the thing which I was going to be seen as different for doing differently was only validated by who I had created myself to be in the eyes of the other person. This became a way of acting and being which by itself came naturally, and sense the coming naturally of the unrestricted behavior came to me so easily and always and my choosing to filter the coming into my awareness of the active implementation of the perpetuation as a state of being of this aberrational mindset and outlook I employed as the antecedent I filter the creation of what would come to be known as my own personal methodology to do a thing, and this premise was who I was. And therefore who I was, was special. I knew I was special because others saw me that way. My trustworthiness became my mantra.of but me genuinely belieit would be perceived would be doing this thing , look through to the other side of the other way of doing the thing as it would be seen, and at the validity with which the